This is the first piece I submitted to Her View From Home. I wrote it in mid-December (2015) and e-mailed it in. They liked it, but there wasn't enough turn around time to actually get it up before Christmas. However, this submission opened the door for me at HVFH, and I went on to publish several more pieces with them. But, since this one has never seen the light of day, I figured it was time to have a little Christmas in July celebration on GFD. Enjoy!
I’ve long been known as the “Queen of Christmas” in my family. I love giving (and even wrapping!) gifts, singing carols, and riding around looking at the lights. I’m the point person for everyone in my family who doesn’t know what to buy for each other. I watch Elf and Home Alone religiously each year. I live for a good cruise through the seasonal section at Target. That being said, this Christmas will be different.
Can I tell you something? I’ve had a horrible Fall. My grandfather passed away, I dealt with a painful medical issue, my next door neighbor died, and another close relative has been diagnosed with cancer. I’m tired. I love Christmas, but I just can’t do it this year. At least not to my usual standards.
I’m not sad about this, and I don’t feel guilty. I’m implementing some good advice from a friend and being gentle with myself. As moms, we teach our kids to be gentle with everyone and everything: be gentle with the baby, be gentle with the dog, be gentle with the Christmas tree. How come we never apply this to ourselves?
So, to my fellow weary moms, here are some Christmas confessions. I hope they inspire you to go easy on yourself this December:
I bought four packages of BOGO cookie dough to make for the wonderful YMCA childcare workers who take care of my daughter. We’ve already baked and eaten two of these packages. I have to buy replacement dough to even get this done.
We’re not putting ornaments on the tree. Don’t get me wrong. The tree is up. The lights and garland are on. There’s an angel on top and a tree skirt and presents underneath. I know this holiday will be filled with lots of joy, but I also need some peace. I just can’t spend every day of this month teaching my curious toddler not to touch the ornaments. There will always be next year.
A lot of people are getting gift cards this year. Here’s looking at you, $25 Applebee’s card! Sometimes good is good enough.
It’s 2:48 am as I write this, and I’m having milk and cookies. Yes, those same cookies that were meant for the Y. Santa doesn’t stand a chance.
I still love the hoopla of Christmas, but, ultimately, I have to remember that the manger was a pretty simple scene. I’m trying to embrace that simplicity this season.
Have you ever had to take your Christmas down a notch? How did it go?